A voice in the sky with our feet on the ground

I'm here on the train again. Fond memories on this train. Finding love, losing it, rekindling it, remembering days long past, feeling alone, feeling at peace, feeling loved. It's funny how inanimate objects might know us better than anyone else. If only they could speak. I wonder if stars get lonely, looking down on this world with nothing but themselves to keep company. Smiling, crying, cheering, witnessing the event of our seemingly inconsequential lives. Round and round, endless circles day in and day out, the quicker the time passes the longer you've been around. There are those days where it makes every moment seem too short, like time has changed, like you've been cheated out of a real day. 19 years, it all seems such a rush of blurring color and changing seasons. You really tend to miss things so insignificant. Sometimes I remember smells. Smells of the beach, smells of your clothes after swimming in the lake, smells of the ground right after it's rained, smells that blow through the trees, and smells of a traditional Sunday meal prepared by mom. It almost makes me want to cry when I remember these things, it may be quite some time before I get to see the places I've come to love so passionately. And yet all I want to do is take those people that I care for and share these experiences with them. There's so little happiness these days. It used to be that happiness would find you, but now you can spend days on end looking for it. It's so simple, a tree, a lake, a road, a house. Memories that haunt us and call us back, no resistance and no respect for our hearts. The five senses, maybe they're a curse placed on us. They all cause us pain. But wasn't there a time when we were so overjoyed? Ah, yes, I remember, nights cuddling on your parents bed, sanctuaries in tree houses, mornings of overly sugared cereal, nights of funny stories that always made us laugh while mom made us cocoa and cookies. You can't miss the things you've never had, but there isn't a moment in my life that I would trade for all the treasures on this planet. Well, maybe a few, but even those are rather important. All we need now are opportunities, chances to reveal our true character and perhaps persist to the end and never let go of the things that we love. Some are afraid of love, afraid that what they've found may be too good for them. But always remember, if we weren't worth it, we wouldn't find it. A pig in mud will always find mud, but someone always looking to the sky will never miss the stars. If you've found something lovely it's only because you're looking in the right place. Chase your dreams and make them reality. They say there's a land where no one wants to sleep because their reality is ten times better than any dream they could ever imagine. LOL, Live out Life. And this is my long train philosophy in a tea cup.

Something beyond ourselves

I could have sworn I saw the makings of a spring day just yesterday. The rain was falling, the roads were wet, and then suddenly, like a message from a loved one, the sun appears, bringing a warmth and glow that you only know from your memories. It breaks through the clouds like a door swinging open to a whole new world of possibilities. You really can't help but smile. It's as natural as sleeping in. The fact is, we really have so much to look forward to. I feel so old when I say this, but I am over joyed when I think of the phenomenal lives my friends will someday lead. There will be loves, losses, children, parents, in laws, parties, birthdays, graduations, and everything in between. Life is moments building upon moments. I have no right at this time to look for someone to share these moments with, but someday I will find someone, someone that becomes the ice cream with the cherries, the basis of all the moments enriched by the connection we can feel between two people. Because the truth is, I haven't found them yet, or better yet, I haven't truly found them or myself yet. They say that you can never truly know someone until you know yourself. I've got an awful lot of growing up to do. And those around me will have these same chances to grow as well. We may not be kids forever, but we can always be happy. Finding it is just a matter of looking. We never find what we don't want to look for. It is best to view every moment of your childhood as a fleeting moment to be cherished, but never coveted. I think the reason man has never invented time travel is because everything in life has a place. White gloves don't belong in red dye. Both have their place and their purpose, but the past belongs in the past, we belong in the present, and our dreams belong in the future. Our past is like the shadow, always with us and a part of us, following us down every byway. But when we focus too much on the shadow, we miss what's ahead. I would say that desires too early in life are little wastes of time waiting to happen. As a result of our uninterested minds in the things beyond ourselves our guardian angels reside. Whether metaphorically or realistically they are there. A constant force working for our betterment. Pushing us towards not what we want, but always what we need. Often times our lives seem troublesome and full of grief, seldom a moments peace, but then the storm subsides, we learn that fighting a hurricane is fruitless, but flowing in the tide will take us to lands unimagined. Blessings in disguise we call them. Naturally as humans we have set in our minds how life should unfold, how things should go. How then do we expect a Gods reward when we are unable to take the path required to achieve it? Too often we refuse to look beyond our own perception and we let our natural feelings take over what is actually necessary to achieve something beyond ourselves. When all the masks are stripped away and the metaphors revealed to the unknowing, it really comes down to one thing. We Do Not Want To Be Human. We don't, we've known it forever, we want something more, perhaps we DESERVE something more. So how then do we expect to be something more if we refuse to see, act, believe, attempt something more. If we act as a carnal man, we will remain a carnal man, higher functions will be all too far beyond our reach, but, if we were to rise above our expectations as a parasitic species, then perhaps we would attain a knowledge envied by the stars. Makes you think, doesn't it? And this is my peculiar philosophy in a tea cup.